Hello All, what a beautiful spring day we are having. I’m in the second week of my holidays and enjoying them so far. Been doing a bit extra work and not as much time to rest as I’d like but enjoying the times I’m getting to spend in the garden or catch up with friends and spend time with my dog.

Today I started some new medication for my ADHD we found the last one to be bit to stimulating as I was having nights where I would be wide awake all night and then working long days the next day which was a big struggle.

We have changed to a lower dose that I take twice a day and hopefully can get my sleep patterns back to normal, balancing that out with making sure my ADHD symptoms are treated enough as well is very challenging but my sleep has to come first.

I have heard comments in my past that apparently people that don’t have kids shouldn’t be tired but laying awake all night because you have a neurodiverse brain can be just as tiring.

I think I’ve been so focused on my ADHD diagnosis that I’ve neglected my EUPD a little bit.

As there is not a lot of EUPD attention around I do find it a hard diagnosis to have. And trying to sift through the symptoms of what falls into what category is hard.

A little background on EUPD

EUPD the most common type of personality disorders. It usually causes you to experience intense and fluctuating emotions, which can last for anywhere between a few hours and several days at a time. These emotions can range from extreme happiness, euphoria and self-belief, to crushing feelings of sadness and worthlessness.

The rapid and extreme changes in mood, as well as the negative feelings EUPD creates in yourself and towards others, can make it difficult to maintain stable personal relationships. EUPD can also cause you to have suicidal thoughts or carry out self-harming behaviours. If you’re in this situation, it’s crucial that you reach out for professional help, and open up to a loved one, as soon as possible. Nobody will judge you and you'll benefit from having support, as you prepare to start taking care of your mental health. It’s important to understand that none of this is your fault and many people will struggle to handle this serious – but medically-treatable – condition alone.

If you're feeling overwhelmed, it might help to focus on one feeling at a time. Here are some ideas that you could try to see if they work for you.

Different things work at different times for different people, so try to be kind to yourself if some things don’t work for you. Over time, you might develop your own tips to add to this list too.

Here are some tips on how to help yourself.

If I'm feeling angry, frustrated or restless

You could:

• Rip up some paper

• Hit a pillow

• Do some exercise

• Listen to loud musi

• Do a practical activity like gardening or craft.

If you’re feeling sad, depressed or lonely you could.

• Wrap up in a blanket and watch your favourite TV show

• Write all your negative feelings on a piece of paper and tear it up

• Listen to music that you find uplifting or soothing

• Write a comforting letter to the part of yourself that is feeling sad or alone

• Let yourself cry or sleep

• Cuddle a pet or a soft toy.

If you’re feeling anxious, panicky or tense you could.

• Make yourself a hot drink and drink it slowly, noticing the taste and smell, the shape of the mug and its weight in your hand

• Take 10 deep breaths, counting each one out loud

• Write down everything you can think of about where you are right now, such as the time, date, colour of the walls and the furniture in the room

• Take a warm bath or shower – this can help change your mood by creating a soothing atmosphere and a distracting physical sensation

If you’re feeling dissociative or spaced out you could:

• Chew a piece of ginger or chilli

• Clap your hands and notice the stinging sensation

• Drink a glass of ice-cold water.

If you want to self-harm you could:

• Rub ice over where you want to hurt yourself

• Stick sellotape or a plaster on your skin and peel it off

• Take a cold bath or shower

Some tough symptoms of BPD that are hard to accept

• Wanting attention

• Outbursts of emotions

• Not getting out of bed

• social withdrawal

• Self- destructive behaviours

• Forgetfulness

• Bad self care

• Emotional

• Promiscuity

• Needing validation

• Weird/unusual triggers

Not all of these can be present in one person but this is the tough reality of what it’s like sometimes.

Added together with my ADHD symptoms, severe depression and anxiety disorder symptoms and the ASD. My brain in a battlefield that I am constantly trying to pick apart and workout what symptom is for what and how can I treat it and not have it clash with another symptom- feels like a tug a war sometimes.

This is the harsh reality of what it’s like for a person with multiple diagnosis. It’s not as simple as taking a tablet and being cured.

Comorbidity/Co existing conditiony

Living with a mental illness can be challenging, but what happens when you find yourself dealing with multiple mental health conditions simultaneously? This situation, known as comorbidity, presents unique challenges that require careful management and Comorbidity refers to the coexistence of two or more mental health conditions in an individual. It is not uncommon for individuals to experience comorbidity, as mental illnesses can often overlap or exacerbate each other's symptoms. For example, someone with depression may also struggle with anxiety or substance abuse.

The Challenges of Comorbidity.

Living with multiple mental illnesses can be overwhelming. The symptoms of each condition may interact, intensify, or even mask each other, making diagnosis and treatment complex. Additionally, comorbidity can lead to increased distress, reduced functioning, and poorer overall quality of life. It is crucial to acknowledge these challenges and seek appropriate support.

It’s been an odd few days for me, starting a new medication always feels like I’m going backwards but I can’t think of it like that. I’m hoping it’s a positive and will be better for me.

I’m sure I’ve mention this before but one of the things I struggle with the most is being able to give my opinion and give feedback to someone about a situation with having them respect what I'm saying and not accuse me of being rude.

People with Mental Health disorders have every right to speak up and to be listened to with out the worry of being threatened be cut of contact. If you struggle to accept conflict and can’t handle when someone says something you don’t like, especially when you’re the first one to point out others flaws and pick then that’s more a you issue, also reminding people of their faults is also not okay, I for one, will never forget about my issues and things that I do that I could do better. If someone’s confided in you over time about their personal struggles don’t use it against them.

Telling someone that they forget others have problems too is completely unacceptable, I don’t forget that others have problems but I don’t have the time to focus too much on that. I am so busy and so wrapped up in my issue’s and trying to survive daily that I have to trust that people will go out and get the help and support they need. I do as much as I can to get the word out there and have always offered support to anyone who may need. My door is always open to anyone who wants to chat or ask questions. And hearing ‘you’re not the only one’ is frustrating, no I am not the only one, so if you’re experiencing symptoms or are worried about something or things don’t feel right for you then go and see your GP to start your journey. Go and do something about it like I have.

Mental health is a disability, not every body understands! When I say I can’t do something, I don’t need tips, I don’t need encouragement I need you to believe me that I’m not lying when I say I am unable to do something because of my literal developmental disability. I don’t need to hear ‘just push through’ ‘just do it’ ‘keep trying’ ‘ I did it’ ‘they did it’ because I am absolutely sure that in this moment I can’t fucking do it and I need you to believe me.

We also get told ‘oh everyone has a bit of ahdh’ or ‘oh everyone is a little bit this or that’ or ‘oh everyone is on the spectrum somewhere’.

No, it’s not true. Comments like that invalidate our experiences and it undermines the effort we have put in to live a happy life.

You can’t just be a ‘little bit’ pregnant or have a ‘little bit’ of cancer. You either do or you don’t.

A few hard truths I’ve learnt over the last few months that I need to share.

• Not everyone has the same heart as you.

• Not everyone has the same brain as you.

• Being too nice and accommodating can get you used.

• If they want to they will. No one is ever ‘too’ busy.

• People don’t appreciate a good thing.

• Letting people come back into your life that have already shown you why they are not in your life, won’t change a thing.

• Don’t settle for less.

• Don’t beg people for the bare minimum, that is them showing you their best efforts! If you have to fight for the bare minimum imagining when you have to ask for more.

• People have a way of weeding themselves out.

• Blood doesn’t mean loyalty.

• Healing can mean loneliness, don’t let the wrong people back in just for a temporary feeling of satisfaction because you’re board or lonely.

• Don’t let anyone question your process and your work.

• You DO NOT own anyone an explanation.

• No one can undermine your journey.

‘People have a lot to say about lives they have never lived, offering opinions on struggles they have never faced and passing judgment on paths they have never walked’

I salute very single person who has ever found themselves in a dark place but rose above the pain. And I salute every single person who continues to stand tall with all their broken parts still in tact. You may not be where you want to be but you will get there!