Hi all,

I’m sorry I haven’t written for a while. It’s taken me along time to sort out my new website! I decided to creat a new one and I have transferred over all my old blog posts.

It’s been a busy few weeks with work! I have started another job as a support worker with a beautiful local family from my school and it’s going well.

I have recently signed up to become a Beyond Blue ambassador and will be hosting a Big Blue table morning tea at my workplace in October. I have also had a few physical health issues and will having a colonoscopy next week! So a lot has been happening.

I am managing my ADHD fairly well! I am enjoying researching and learning about ADHD in late diagnosed adult women . It’s been a really good learning process and it has definitely answered a lot of questions.

Things I have learnt about myself and society since my ADHD diagnosis.

1. If you read a medical book it will say that ADHD is a neurodevopmental disorder characterised by traits of impulsivity, forgetfulness and disorganisation but it is a lot more than that.

2. I am not lazy- I am overwhelmed and it puts me in a temporarily paralysis and I can’t physical move.

3. I often over share to people then spend time afterwards convinced they all hate me now.

4. Why it now feel is like I’m begging to peel the mask back and realising what’s me and what’s been a coping mechanism.

5. Why I overthink everything and analyse things to death. One of my favourite quotes by Mark Twain- ‘I’ve had a lot of worries in my life, most of which have never happened’

6. Women and girls get ADHD just as much as men and boys. Girls are taught to be well behaved so they mask it well which results in it often being easy to mis diagnose as a anxiety disorder.

7. Why I am really good in a crisis and will hold it together till it’s over then fall into heap. Or some minor inconvenience will send we over the edge and I’ll have a meltdown.

8. That I can now start to grieve the young girl inside of me who was never healed properly.

9. I may have a messy room, messy work place but I know exactly where everything is and have a system for it all.

10. That I can remind myself I was never too much, too sensitive or broken. I have ADHD and that’s okay.

11. I clean not because my house is dirty but because my mind is.

12. Why I get overly excited and interrupt a conversation- not because I want to make it all about me but it’s my way of saying I understand and I want to join in.

13. I’m a fast thinker, resourceful, good intuition and have good pattern recognition.

14. Feel like I have a sixth sense where I pick up on peoples tiny change of face expressions and tiny fluctuations in their tone of voice when that other people may miss.

15. Hyperactivity doesn’t just mean physical it means mentally too.

16. If I have an afternoon appointment I can’t possibly do anything through the day before hand as I’m in waiting mode all day and have a fear I’ll be late

17. Fighting the urge to finish a story being told by a slow talker or trying to stay focused when someone who’s stories go on and on.

18. I get excited and want to tell someone something but if they arnt available at the time then afterwards I wont tell them because the dopamine has left my body and I am no longer excited about it.

19. I have about 30 shows I want to watch in my list on Netflix but will put on something I’ve seen hundreds of times because I find knowing what’s coming comforting.

A few things that make me laugh

1. I get an idea for a new project in my mind so I go buy everything all at once to do with that project because I tell myself that I will be doing this for the rest of my life and then it sits in a draw for years untouched.

2. I have hundreds of screenshots on my phone of recipes or craft ideas that I will never ever look at again.

3. I believe everytime I buy myself a new journal or planner it will change my life- but I never open it.

4. I have about 20 water bottles and about 10 travel coffee mugs.

If you google ADHD all the definitions are struggle with attention- struggle with focus- struggle with organisation… it’s all struggle struggle struggle that’s enough to make anyone feel hopeless but there’s all the positives too that you don’t see

Think outside the box

Empathetic

Fun to be around

High energy

Hyper focus

Courageous

Great problem solving skills

Good judge of character

On its own ADHD is quite interesting and a really positive thing to have! I find balancing it out with my EUPD a bit tricky.

But overall I would not change my ADHD diagnosis for anything!